Getting things started again

It’s been a while… about 9 months actually.
Life presented some life changing directions to take and I took them!
One of the biggest changes was that I took a full-time job with full health benefits for the entire family. On top of that I got paid on a regular basis, for work that I had been doing anyway and also had a lot of interest in. Awesome, right? It was! For a while.

But soon I started noticing things like…
spending all my energy at work. Being constantly ‘tired’ when I came home. Having a short fuse when it came to relationships with people I loved. Feeling a constant need to just zone out. Feel the need to decompress and have a drink every night (I resisted). Feeling like I missed the whole day with my son.
In a nutshell, I felt depressed.

After some reflection it became painfully obvious that I was not doing something that reinforced the person I wanted to grow into. Sure this was ok for now, but as far as who and where I want to be in 10 or even 5 years? No.
While I was highly encouraged to accept, mostly by family, that these pangs of unhappiness was normal and what 90% of society experiences for financial stability (because financial stability outweighs happiness), it just wasn’t a good enough reason to stay.

On the flip side, it was hugely important for me to experience what a “real world” job felt like. It was extremely affirming to go from college grad to mother to manager of a department, and to have other more experienced workers affirm my competence. Up until that point I felt like I had always just been winging it, though now I feel like maybe I really do know what i’m doing.

So now comes change.

"they sacrificed everything to the stars"

Now that i’m back full-time, doing Kitty Baby Love, the first step for me is to turn what has been something that helped us scrape by into something that really works for our family situation.

Here is where we jump off a cliff again.

After some soul searching, we have decided that it is finally time, after a year of dodging and being insecure, to manufacture our Kitty Egg Crayons from our own blend of natural & organic ingredients.

Its an exciting and nerve-wracking time for us. I’ll write a separate post for it soon.

In the meanwhile, write to me in the comments below, about an exciting opportunity that scared the cheese out of you, and how it all turned out.  I want to know!